remembering this always

Love God
How can I not?

God is good. No matter what. God is good.

Yun lang pow.

Good night.

I have been feeling really low lately. Left and right, I feel that the world is proving me wrong: my friends are not the people who I thought to be, the people around me might have some ulterior motives in being nice to me, the decisions i made over the years have been wrong, that i am just wrong. 

It's hard to smile when inside you are falling apart. my best friend said "not falling apart. not broken. just bent."  He asked me to see the good in everything, in everyone. Even the litlle-est, tiniest ones.

I tried. Still trying here. The past few days have distracted me from those ugly feelings, with the university week celebration and all, but tomorrow is another day in reality. Sometimes I wish I could be transported somewhere else - a parallel universe perhaps where I don't second guess every decision I make or every person I meet.

It's past my bedtime and I should be getting some sleep already. I was about to go offline when my bestfriend messaged me this pic. he has always said that my smile is one of the the most genuine he's ever seen and it would be a travesty if I stopped smiling.

So I will try once again to smile with all my heart, with all of me. I will face these ugly-ness and overcome it.

g'nyt everyone!