D-day

last april, i had a long chat with someone dear about our lives and everything in between. then we ended up talking about having this "deadline" for our friendship because something's bound to happen on our "deadline". that date is aug 8. that's today. between that day in april and today, i promised i will always include this person in my prayers. and i did. i light a candle every day and pray. this person had two scenarios in mind and once upon a time, i prayed for a particular scenario to happen to this person but it ended up badly; so this time, i said i will not ask for either A or B, instead i will pray for what's best to happen. after all, this person deserves just that. the best.

earlier, i received a message saying "indi ka mamangkot how my day went?" (are you not gonna ask how my day went) and i replied "mahulat lang ko nga manugid ka" (i'm just gonna wait til you tell me). then i got the reply "soooooooooo unlike you"

i guess this person knows me well.

i wanted to know. but truth be told, i am a bit scared. i am scared to lose one more person. everyone seems to be leaving me. some not physically but i get betrayed and eventually i just get left.

but i also told this person that whatever happens, i will be happy because that's what i prayed for. i prayed for happiness. for love. for enlightenment. for peace. for everything that's best for this person. even if it means us being not in each other's lives yet again.

so yes, i wanna know. and i wanna know everything. but i won't force that out of you. i won't badger anymore. if you wanna tell me, fine. just don't start the story and not finish it coz really, it kinda pisses me off (and yes, i know how much you like making me ugtas, but please not just about this? i have enough stress right about now).

just remember that whatever happened, whatever decision you made, you're never alone. you have a lot of people who care for you and who love you. and i thank you. that is an understatement, really. you will always always be in my prayers. i will always light a candle for you. i promise you that.