ramblings at 1am

i wanted to sleep but my mind was not ready so here i am with my verbal diarrhea.

for some time now, i have been thinking a lot about direction. for a long time, there was just one direction i followed, and it was not even a choice i personally made. i just went with the flow. it was convenient, it was safe. i let time pass me by.

and now i feel stranded. i feel that it's about time i move my ass. i have some decisions to make but i dunno if my decisions will be the right ones. i dunno if my choices will work out.

i remember a conversation a few nights back which went like this:

"how do we know if we made the right choice?"

"we don't." .

so yeah, i am scared. i feel like my days have been a constant red light.

that stoplight has to go green soon.