dear C

i am sorry if i wasn't able to talk with you longer earlier this evening. i know you are hurting so much right now, and you have every right to hurt. it was something you thought that would last. it was nearly perfect. what happened was very unexpected.

you asked me what you should look for in the next person who you'll let in your heart/life and to be honest, i don't think i am in the right position to answer that coz you've seen me through the messes i had, too. but here's what i gathered from my conversation this night with my two dearest friends.

find someone who has seen the best and the worst in you. someone who can put up with your most demanding of demands, someone who will stick not because of what you have or what you can give but simply because of who you are. someone who will be honest with you even if being honest will hurt at times.

find someone who will call you and only you "babe" or whatever pet name you have. someone who will not give up on you in the same way you won't give up on him. someone who will always choose you despite of and in spite of everything. someone who has a spine. someone who will work on what he says, giving you something concrete and not just words or promises.

find someone who wants the same things you do. in a relationship, you should have the same goals, and you should have plans on how to reach those goals. you both should have foresight. you both should have plans on how to work towards those goals and most importantly, you should start working on those goals as soon as you can.

find someone who is not only your partner but who is also your best friend. someone who you can talk to just about anything. someone you can share comfortable silence with. someone who's not afraid to tell the world how much he loves you.

find someone who may not be perfect but who's just perfect for you in the same way that you're perfect for him.

but for now, my little girl, take time to find yourself. believe me when i say this: the pain will go away after some time. when God takes something away from you, He isn't punishing you, He is merely making you ready for something better, even the best.

you are in my prayers. i am leaving for some rest and quiet but i will see you when i get back, ok?
((huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug))