cracked

I try to believe…that God doesn't give your more than one little piece of the story at once. You know, the story of your life. Otherwise your heart would crack wider than you could handle. He only cracks it enough so you can still walk, like someone wearing a cast. But you’ve still got a crack running up your side, big enough for a sapling to grow out of. Only no one sees it. Nobody sees it. Everybody thinks you’re one whole piece, and so they treat you maybe not so gentle as they would if they could see that crack.

- Vivi Walker 
(Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells)

because i'm corny like that

I'm not a big valentines day girl. I've always believed that valentines day should be every day. There should be no wasting of time and effort in making sure your luvee knows you love him/her.

Buuuuuuuuuuut (yes, i am contradicting myself) these won't hurt too!

i like roses but only if they're arranged in special ways like this.

TULIPS! i likey!!

I've been looking for Alpine White chocolate these past years but Royce will always be appreciated.


and a love letter. a handwritten one.

what i really really want is lots of time together. or if the universe hears me enough, together for good. for real. rightfully. i just can't wait. pray for me, friends?

Advance happy valentine's day!

someone asked me if i would like to delete past memories...

And have them repeat again in some form or other? No, thanks. I’d rather keep both eyes, ears open. Whole heart and spirit vulnerable and sensitive, able to look back at what was, celebrate what was wonderful, learn from the terrible and hopefully become wiser for tomorrow and present for today. I don’t want to pretend none of it happened. The battle scars can’t be denied after all. But no one has the right to make me suffer for them.

No one, not even myself.

home is where the heart is

((insert long sigh here))

for CJ

saturday

wow. i have never been this tired before. this is just metally and physically draining.
but i didn't regret going out.

and wow.....
was that an answer to my prayers?

My prayer for February

Faith allows things to happen.

It is the power that comes from a fearless heart.

And when a fearless heart believes, miracles happen.
 

 

Please help me Lord. In times where I feel hopeless, help me hold on to that which is true: LOVE. 

 Keep me fearless, especially at times when I don't know how to deal with all the fears and frustrations that come my way. The past year have been full of that. Full of uncertainties. 

I  have faith in you. I have faith in the people around me.

I believe. I know miracles will happen.