Wednesday, February 29, 2012

What you should do with the love of your life (while working on making things right)

What you should do with the love of your life.

(got the pic from THIS)
we've been doing this, yes?

and shall i add: lots and lots of hugs and kisses and cuddling too!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

i want!

me and my future children will surely love these

ok....prepare for some mush

who would have thought, right?

i dunno exactly when, but i did.

and now i am full of

i know you'll make everything right. as soon as we can.
and when it's right
and we'll have
(or quads...*shudders at the thought*)

our kids will grow happy and healthy...

and we'll grow old happily together.

the future looks bright.

it will happen. i have faith.
in love. in us =)


I had a most curious conversation earlier with a friend. It’s one of those that kind of leave you with too much useless information. Everything you want to know and yet nothing confirmed. It’s annoying, disconcerting but comforting at the same time.

I feel like everything’s ok and yet nothing’s where it should be.

This is weird, but this has a purpose for sure.

Monday, February 27, 2012

hambal sang horoscope ko today...

"You may feel as if you're running into insurmountable resistance, but you're able to hold your ground today, rather than retreating. Don't think that your trials are a sign of defeat; instead, look at the current circumstances as an opportunity to re-establish a strong foundation to carry you forward. you will be rewarded sooner than you think."

i'm not one who's into horoscopes but it made me think.

i still want the same person - just this one person.
i still want the same things.

i want this person to want the same things. i want to believe he does.

i have faith we can move forward.
we will not be defeated.
our plans will come to fruition.

i can't wait to start our future.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

i was set on writing a long post.......

...about conversations i had last week, but i can't seem to finish it. so lemmeshare this with you for now:

"The only thing you can do is love. You can’t make them love you more, love you deeper, or even love you back...

Superhero relationships don't last.
One can never be the stronger/patient/more giving one always.

Your relationship should and will have ebb and flow. One will be stronger…at times, and the other will be weaker…and in times the roles will reverse. Your relationship should be like a see-saw, and in this way, I don’t mean the ups and downs, I mean the give and take" - from DAD

Balance. It's very possible.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

i know my mind is set on something or someone when even the basic poses give me difficulty

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

isa sa mga ginhambal sang sermon kagina

Every person is entitled with and meant for a right one. Opportunities may give us that special person although sometimes in a wrong time or may it be the right time but certain things doesn't go along exactly with what you expect. WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE, YOU BOTH JUST KNOW IT. SO hold on to that person. Never let that person go. Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get - only with what you are expecting to give - which is everything. And for both of you to enter a relationship and commit forever "Everything" must be on top.

Monday, February 20, 2012

"We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance.”
- Harrison Ford

still working on my longer post. my other personal blog has been taking much of my time lately.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

i could really really get used to this =)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012


will talk about what happened in another post but for now, lemme just say thank you for these

V-day turned out better than i thought

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Hearts' Day, everyone!

Love is patient. Love is kind. Love will see you through. Love ain't blind. Love stays when all is gone. Love will find a way when there is none. Love will trust. Love won't lie. Love is forever. Love is life. Love gives with no conditions. Love is life's ignition.

Love is a feeling. A response to a signal brought about by the stimulation of the hypothalamus gland and signaling the feeling of warmth and love. However, LOVE for me is the decision to accept someone, to give what I have and to take care of the person who I DECIDED to LOVE. Love is always a beautiful experience. i'm off to school

Friday, February 10, 2012

today was interesting


...i was quite cranky. it's the time of the month again and everything just aches. little things piss me off easily. hehehehe

...i was finally able to say no to something that is not in line with my values, my morals. i am a person who can be coaxed into doing something that is in line with "helping others". i was asked to do just that but after careful consideration (well...after just a few minutes), it just didn't seem right and today i stood firm on that "NO". am proud of myself for that and being the pushover that i am, i know i couldn't have done it without the encouragement of special people.

...was a straight 9-hour work day. in lab class, a coworker happened to pass by and then we got to talk and he told me about his frustrations at work. at 230, i was clammy and pale, and my vision was getting blurred. so i was brought to the clinic where they gave me a cup of water with a lot of sugar (hypoglycemia is something i don't wanna experience again). i wanted to finish a lot today so i can have a little break next week that i forgot i haven't eaten since i left home at 730am, saying no to the breakfast dad prepared. now i know better. next time that poached egg + longganisa is mine! =)

...after class i met up with a friend to get something. i thought it was just gonna be the two of us, catching up and finalizing our transaction. but i was wrong. i met her in a restaurant and there were some new people and past acquaintances. i was asked to stay and so i did but i told them it'll just be for a short time since i have an early morning tomorrow. turns out that D, my friend's friend was celebrating another chance in life, in love. she got her annulment ("it took just 8 months! ex-hubby wanted the same thing and though i felt sad at first, the chance to be happy with a great and lasting love is what keeps me going. it was all worth it. so let's parteeeee!"). she doesn't have new man yet but her confidence in another chance is quite admirable. she has a lot of hope - for herself, her kid, her future- that's so heartwarming, so encouraging, that even though she wasn't really a friend-friend, i felt so happy for her. before i left, i took a shot of tequila with everyone to cheer her on her second chance.

...just about a while ago, i talked to one of my best friends in high school and told her about my day. we talked about sticking to what we feel is right and we talked about second chances. she's feeling bad lately and so we volleyed back and forth, encouraging each other despite the uncertainties. there was a lot of chatting that happened, a lot of questions that came out, some were answered while others are left hanging.

at the end of the day, i guess there really are no accidents in this world. God brings people into your life to encourage....then He also brings people who will encourage you. He brings the right people to you. To help you help them be better. To help you be better.

I am thankful for today. it was such a long day but it ended with me full of hope for second chances. for better things to come. for the future.

Goodnight, friends.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I had a conversation with one of my best friends back in high school about elastic limits. How everyone has one. The moment where we all break and snap. The point of no return. It varies for all.. some may have shallower limits. Some can go on far longer than even they realize (i think i am one of these people). But when that elasticity is breached, when there’s no more slack, when it does snap, it’s final.

We have elastic limits for many things. Breached elastic limits are the cause of career shifts, broken relationships, people moving far away, black eyes and maxed out credit cards.

Today I can’t help but think about my own limits. At what point am I going to break (because I know I haven’t yet)? And can I come back from that if and when it happens?

been busy with the other blogs. and yes, that book, too.

will prolly do another 10-day or 30-day challenge next so i can force myself to write every day. hehehehe

Tuesday, February 7, 2012


"I think you should pray for what your heart desires. Ask God. There is nothing wrong with asking for what you want. It's about time you pray for yourself. " - DK

Earlier, over magnificent tears, I finally prayed for what I was afraid to pray for. I have this tendency, during my quiet time alone with God, to ask for many things.. things I have every confidence in Him to deliver. Healing for friends, what's best for loved ones, protection for family, provision for all, etcetera.

And then when it comes to me, I generally just say things like, “if it’s Your will..” blahblahblah. I never get into specifics and I’ve always known why. I can't bring myself to ask for what I want. I have always had doubts that He will give me the desires of my heart because a part of me (still) doesn’t think I deserve it.

That changed today. Today, I shamelessly wept at His feet and poured out all the contents of my battered mind and my scared worry-ful heart. All that was missing was me beating my chest for emphasis. But I did it. Finally. And it was like someone finally opening a window in an attic that’s forever been kept in the dark. All this mustiness seeped out of me and I could finally breathe.

So it’s out.

I’m now beginning to learn how to pray for myself. That’s a victory in and of itself, yes?

Monday, February 6, 2012

because i'm scared to sleep coz another aftershock might occur....

i watched this...

"...for the first time everything seemed clear to me - like one logical progression. It felt like you and I were the greatest plan ever made and I had nothing to do with it. Being with you made me feel that maybe I didn't have to keep planning anymore because it felt like I was actually living. And that for once in my life I wouldn't have to work so hard at being happy." ~Boy and Girls

Sunday, February 5, 2012

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one person, no different from any other person, wanders into your stupid life…you give them a piece of you. They don’t ask for it. They do something one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like “maybe we should just be friends” or “how very perceptive” turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt. A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love.”

— Rose Walker, from The Sandman by Neil Gaiman

Saturday, February 4, 2012

a gift!

An aunt gave me this book:

I am reading three books right now and i have a looooot of school stuff to do so i'm putting this one on hold.

However, they have a website and this is what I found:

i took a quiz and apparently, this is my love language (hmmmmm....yeah i'm mushy alright, and yes, i have trouble accepting gifts but it doesn't mean that I don't like receiving them, I do!):

Your Scores

6Words of Affirmation
9Quality Time
4Receiving Gifts
5Acts of Service
6Physical Touch

I know I will learn stuff from this one but it'll have to wait til I start my summer vacation.

do visit the website at

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

When a big change occurs in your life, it forces you to change direction. Sometimes the new path may not be easy, but you can be absolutely certain that there is magnificence for you on the new path. You can absolutely certain that the new path contains things that you could not have experienced otherwise.

When we look back at a negative event that occurred in the past, we often see how that event transformed our life. We see how that event directed us to a life that we would not change for anything.

- Rhonda Byrne, The Secret