I feel what's to happen, all happened before.

No matter how “busy” a person’s day may be if they really care and really love, they’ll always find time for you and for what needs to be done.
Sometimes it sucks being strong, because when people know that you are strong, they think that it is ok to hurt you over and over again.

please let this not be a heartbreak

a few more days and i get to be somewhere happy. it's the only happy thing that kept me going through the very difficult days this month. so am i excited? you bet!!!
especially that i am looking forward to a promise. a promise that will lead to many more happy days and happy thoughts.

i am counting on a biiiiiiig promise made a few months back. i have faith the promise was kept. i honestly don't want to be disappointed again this time. i can't bear another heart break. right now, i am throwing away every fear i have in my self because i have faith in the promise-maker. i know this second time is when the promise will be kept. it will be done. no excuses. i'm done with excuses.and i was promised no excuses.

it's what's keeping me sane. this time, i know and have faith that i will be given what i want.
i trust that the promise was kept. this time i have no doubt about it.


the future is bright.

hmmmmmmm.....

just got back from my niece's bday party and while talking to my cousins and aunts and uncles, one of them shared this: "There is no such word as "loved". Love has no past tense. If you ever stop loving someone, then you never truly loved them in the first place."

the rest of the night, it got stuck in my head

i have a lot of things to say, a lot of things on my mind bothering me. a lot of questions wanting to be answered. each day that things are not made right means another day away from the future, from what my heart desires. 

sometimes, the world does pour too much negative vibes on you. 

i hope and pray next week will be full of positive ones. it's less than a week til i get on that plane and find out if really, things will be made right. if promises are kept.

if my heart's desire will come to reality.

g'nyt friends.

pakot gid!

something-something gid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- insert looooooooooooooong sigh here -

will i ever get what i want?
will i ever be freed from my fears?

times like these make me want to just pack up and leave. i miss the beach!

something is absolutely wrong.

i can feel it.

i can sense it.

today had been another very difficult day.

i have so much to say, so many stories to tell and yet i feel that the person i want to talk to most isn't even interested nor cares for them, in the same way that i care and would like to know every little thing about this person's days.

two more days for this work week. three meetings to go, more students to tell the bad news to...and maybe another encounter with the v.

please please let the difficult days be done and over with. i am just so tired. i feel so alone and unimportant. unloved.

may we all have a good night's sleep.