what a week!

october's going by so fast!

october 1 was a saturday. i was away from home. earlier that day i made a decision that's gonna play a big part in how and where i am headed. i am happy about my decision but it also scares the shiz out of me - i battle with my fears about this not working out almost every freakin' day but this is something i have faith in. it's something new and yet it's as comfortable as my favorite shirt. i don't think i've ever made a decision that made me this happy.
i finally met a very special kid on the second of october. i have known him since he was a baby but we really have not had the chance to meet in person. i look forward to more moments with him and maybe even becoming his friend.
i went back home the same day, super early at the airport only to be told my flight was delayed. i was also looking forward to someone picking me up when i landed but something went wrong so i took a cab home.
the third til the seventh had me very busy in school due to the final exams but it didn't end there. i had meeting and social obligations to attend to as well.
saturday was for our medical mission and though it was very tiring, i was glad we were able to serve almost 400 patients at our adopted barangay in leganes. and i even had a happy surprise - my highschool classmate was one of our volunteer doctors so i was able to catch up with my classmate over lunch.
today, aside from our usual sunday thing, my friend pocci will be going back to manila so hopefully we can see each other before his flight.

i am hoping for a slower, much happier, full of memories second week of october.
sem break's on. i hope i do get some break this time.

halin sa facebook

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON'T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere. Date.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her. Text message her before you sleep and say goodnight so she'll know she's the last thing on your mind
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek.
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

You’ll never know when she needs just a little more love .. ♥!

i love surprises!

i was having a very very busy day at work so when my friends came over to pick me up, i was more than happy to go to dinner with them.

little did i know that one of our childhood friends is back home so when i saw him, i was so glad i didn't notice i was crying when i hugged him. pocci's been away for quite some time so having him around even for just three days is a happy surprise.

we ate at one of our tambayans (actually, theirs...i was not allowed to go out much when we were in hs) and it was fun reminiscing our growing up years.


we then went to get some coffee at sbucks coz according to my friend, " we have no starbucks in norway" (hala, tuod? hahaha). there, i had another surprise when our little group bumped into another friend who i saw last about a year ago.

and when i got home, i found this...

meet Bronx (tatay gave him his name. i wanted something else but...he's dad so he gets to pick the name)

i thought he'd be here on sunday pa but earlier this evening, he was brought by my cousin coz he figured we could all use a little surprise.

here he was before he was brought to our house

isn't he cute??!!??

today was tiring but it was good. surprises. i just love them

today is world teachers' day

my parents were teachers. four of my aunts were teachers. when i was a little girl, my mom always brought me to her school and so i grew up knowing her friends and even tutored by some. growing up, whenever i was asked if i wanted to be one myself, i'd answer with an emphatic "NO".

i wanted to be a doctor, or a speech pathologist. even a nun when i was in elementary school. being a teacher never crossed my mind.

in grade school, i had teachers who were total opposites.

i had a teacher who, when a classmate in prep pushed me in a puddle, said "indi tu hungod, katambok abi sa imo kundi nasalapay ka" (she didn't mean it. you're fat that's why you got in your classmate's way). i also had one who always criticized my performance in her subject (filipino - i was really terrible in the subject).

but i also had teachers who told me "whatever you want to do, you can". they always seemed to believe the best in me. they pushed me to join contests, encouraged me to sign up for the different school clubs (yes, even the dancing one. hahaha)...they just believed in me - all fatty fat fat with unruly hair me.

after i graduated in college and passed the board exam, the university offered me a job to teach and i said no a couple of times before i finally gave in (with a little coercion, maybe? hahaha) . i told the dean then that i will only be teaching for one semester...and now it has been years since i signed that contract with the university.

so what made me stay?

at first i enjoyed being financially capable. i loved being able to buy stuff for myself and putting in money for a business (which is now a different story) and saving money for future use. but later on, i realized that i like teaching, and after a few more years, i realized and now know that i LOVE teaching.

i love seeing my students eyes light up whenever they overcome a difficulty in their lessons, or when their experiments turn out well. i love seeing them interact with each other and build friendships. i love being friends with them, sharing and making memories while they are in the university or during their internship. i love seeing them accomplish something, and my heart swells every time i see them taking their oaths as fellow pharmacists.

so yeah, I am a teacher. And it is a strange, scary thing to be. sometimes i still find myself unprepared for my lessons. this sem had me questioning my being one. there are times when i feel that i am not enough (i know i need to take a break from teaching soon coz i need a breahter). But I was raised by some of the best and so I, in turn, need to believe that I didn’t turn out too bad myself.


to my teachers from grade school to graduate school, to my mom's friends and to those i consider my mentors, thank you for guiding me all these years. i am the kind of teacher i am today because of you. happy teachers' day! i love you so much.

earlier tonight

a bottle of kurant
food
a surprise cake

laughter
friends happy for you and me
for us

wow....there's an "us" now. a "we".

us.
we.
i like the sound of it.

we'll make this work.

a late post

when i was in singapore last month, i viewed a photo exhibit by the photographer Abbas


what got my interest were his photos of the different religions all over the world





i born and raised Catholic (and the conservative/traditional one at that) but I have lots of friends who belong to other religions and we never had problems about it. we have similar beliefs, even practices, and they tug at my heartstrings every time they tell me they include me and my intentions in their prayers. i know that them praying for me is one of the reasons why i am blessed. it makes me feel loved, knowing that our friendships can be thicker than faith.

while viewing the photos, I got to thinking and realized that at the core of every organized religion is LOVE. love for one's self, for another person, for a higher being, whatever name you might call him/her.

at the end of the hall was a guestbook. i scanned through it and this was what i liked best:

"...i think i don't understand enough to understand..."

i might not understand other religions but i would like to believe that i understand love and that's what's more important. what's most important.

The tip of my nose, his shoulder.

May many nights end like that.

....my heart's not lost anymore