this is what i mean, kids

Missing people really sucks

That sounds like really bad grammar right there.

But missing people is excruciating and difficult and painful and I hate the feeling of needing someone who is a billion miles away from you. It feels really bad/sad and painful when you want to tell just this one person your news and you can't reach that person. It sucks not being with people you wanna share your life with. Because all the bbms, yms, text messages, e-mails and Skype sessions in the world will never measure up to standing in front of someone you enjoy being with. Or kissing. Or hugging.

Yes, nothing sounds more torturous than not being able to hug someone that you miss.

I don’t like this.

I am totally myself and not at all me at the same time. These are treacherous waters. I’ve never second-guessed myself so much in my recent life… or wondered why I’m still so seemingly calm under the surface. If anyone could see into my thoughts, they’d realize how terribly conflicted I feel...about many, many things.

A hug would be really great right about now.

today

i have been feeling worried and restless lately so i told myself i will try to get myself busy for me to be distracted from getting worried and restless.

i was about to go home when i received a message from a good friend. our couple friend has a feng shui/numerology consultation late this afternoon and they wanted us to accompany them.

it was something new for me and being the curious girl that i am, i dragged myself along. it was quite interesting listening to Mr. M giving them tips on how to go about their wedding. and because Mr M enjoyed having us around, he gave us our numerology readings too (for free!).

he also read our palms (which made me worry about some of the stuff he said) and it was an experience as well.

i dunno how it works but i heard a lot of things that are spot on about me. i got some "warnings" too and some tips on how to counter the bad stuff.

so i learned something new today. and i got to spend some time with friends.

again, despite the difficulties these days, there will always be something to be thankful for.

thank you universe.

thank you God.

today

attended early morning yoga after first Saturday mass and had a big breakfast overlooking the city with my buddy Lou.

went to school, finished laboratory activities and early in the afternoon met up with the cousins and kids for our monthly "session" (no pics. we were too busy talking and laughing).

and then, my niece mikee, who just got back after finishing high school in the states, and i had our long overdue date.

she loves her food really really spicy!

Korean food =yum!

<-- i just had to take a pic. teehee!

coffee and desserts were sweeter coz she paid for them (first time nanglibre! hahaha)

sometimes i forget that my nieces are already grown ups - going through things on their own, making their own decisions, having their own lives. it's amazing how much has changed since she left for the states. hearing about her experiences, happy and sad (we even had similar experiences) made me realize a lot of things about our family, about her and her sisters, even about myself.

i am thankful for my family.

i am thankful for today.

staying positive

....because despite a lot of things going terribly wrong and making me absolutely scared and worried these days, there’s still lots to smile about.

and to quote my priest friend: "Things will fall in their right places at the right time. But the right time will not come if we don't give our best efforts to push things to get to their right places. You know things are meant to be when you are sure and you can't wait to give your all to push towards the rightness of things"

praying for the things to get pushed nearer and nearer to their right places.

praying doubly hard for the right time to come really soon.

Thank you, God, for being awesome.

i love hugs!