something isn't right

Am worried about a few things today… and I could just be paranoid but there seems to be a foreboding in the air. I’m hoping I’m just being hypersensitive.

immaneedtolightmorecandles.

now, off i go.

Day 8: What’s in my handbag/purse

let's see:
i have my wallet, cam, favorite pen, mobile phones, rosary, charger, and some kakikay-an. this is in my small bag. the big bag, if in use, holds more stuff =)

i just remembered something =)

Day 7: My worst habit

i have quite a few, actually, and these were pointed out by some of my friends:

1. i say sorry a darn lot. i say sorry even when it's not my fault. i say sorry even if an apology is not needed.

2. i tend to overanalyze stuff which makes me worry a lot. and i do worry a loooooooooooooooot.

3. i hug my friends a lot. some of them are not okay with it. hahahah

4. i talk fast. sometimes my mind's on overdrive and my words can't catch up with it.

When you sell a man a book you don’t sell just twelve ounces of paper and ink and glue – you sell him a whole new life. Love and friendship and humour and ships at sea by night – there’s all heaven and earth in a book, a real book. -Christopher Morley

Do you have saved messages? If so, who are they from and why do you still have them?

i lost my main phone a few months ago but my trusty back-up phone has this for its oldest sms (it's a lot of pics given that my phone's screen is small, so i'm just gonna type the rest of it):
... victims. Others can shake you, surprise you, disappoint you, but they cannot prevent you from acting, from taking the situation you are presented with and moving on. No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation,you can always do something. You always have a choice, and the

it's something a good friend sent me when i was having a hard time.

Choices. I've always had difficulty with them but I've learned that sometimes, the best choice is the hardest one. And sometimes, the hardest one is the one that will make me happy.

Day 5 Write five messages to five different people without using names.

thank you for being always there for me. i made mistakes, terrible ones, and yet you never did say "i told you so" (you just told me i'm stupid, and you're entitled to that). thank you for being the persons in my life. i will forever be grateful for the gift of your friendship.

we used to be the closest of friends and now you can't even look at me. i am sorry for what happened. i should have been a better friend. our friendship was good while it lasted. thank you for those happy times.

i want him to stop loving you but he still does. it kinda sucks, you know. you treated him badly and yet he is tied to you, and he loves you. he still does. i just realized you are one of the main reasons why i am scared shit. you win.

how can you be so unspeakably unfair? this has been going on for quite some time already and i went along with it because i love what i do. but not anymore. You need a taste of your own medicine. this has to stop. i can't be your doormat anymore. i say enough.

I wanna be with you. I wanna make plans with you. I want to include you in my future. But I'm scared. I've never wanted something so bad. You told me you love me and that you're sure this will work, without any time frame. I'm holding on to that.

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wow, this is hard! (wipes tears)