namangkot sila

They asked: Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at his faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to be pretty and beautiful, but the crap underneath can ruin you. Are you willing to accept that?

I say,

Your flaws single you out, set you apart, make you different from the rest, and thank god. I don’t just settle for put up with your blemishes, I accept them. I like them because they make you human, and humans are easier to love than photographs and illusions and ideals; humans fit more easily between arms and between legs; humans are welcome to their imperfections because if there’s one thing humans can do perfectly, it’s love. Humans can love, they can do it flawlessly.

you've already won me over head over feet
....i couldn't help it
it's all your fault

you're a blessing. my blessing.


praying for plans to come into fruition soon

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart]

By E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywherei go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

just what i want to say

long days

there's the long day that's very physical, like I have to go through stuff - check papers, work on an experiment, lift boxes, unpack, sort out things.
and then there's the day that's just long because I have to read minds and figure out what people want of me, from me. and sometimes i don't do that very well.
and there's also the day that gets long because i find myself worrying about people i love.
and lastly, there's the day when my brain and my heart can't figure out which of them is right. which of them should be followed because they both make very valid points and a compromise is just so hard to get to.

today's a combination of all those kinds of a long day. i am physically, mentally, emotionally drained.

everything hurts.

it's just the fifth day of the year and here comes a huge wave of hurt, worry, confusion...and mostly fear.

stumped

i wanted to write about my resolutions but halfway through it, i just couldn't find the right words. so let me just share this for now:

Yoda said, “Do or do not. There is no try.”

I love starwars but lemmejust say with all due respect that I disagree, because I really feel like it takes a lot of courage to simply try. In trying, there is a conscious choosing of something uncertain. There is a moment where you decide to go for it despite the absence of the assurance of success. It's scary. It's not easy, esp for me, but I think that speaks even louder than outright success.

I am claiming 2012 to be my year. 2012 will be a happy, love-filled, adventure-filled year for myself and my loved ones.

sweet!

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