a little while ago...

...i heard my first christmas song on the radio.

wow. time sure flies.

Lord knows what I really really reeeeeeeally want for Christmas but chances of me getting what my heart desires are slim to none so I'm just gonna hope and pray for the best.



I want a happy Christmas this year!

May we all have a happy Christmas this year.

(now thinking about making my Christmas list *excited*)

engine trouble

my car's engine caught fire earlier this morning due to a short circuit.


my wires were melted.


needless to say, i had a panic attack. my dad and our mechanic have never failed to teach me what to do in cases like these, but my mind just went blank and i had difficulty breathing. good thing there were helpful manongs who immediately removed the battery terminals (and one even had a pail of water with him) and helped nix the fire.

my car's fine now. i was able to drive it again by mid-afternoon. and - people who know me will say this is an achievement - i didn't cry! hahahaha

i am scared to ask the questions for it scares me more to hear the answers.
(i can almost imagine my heart breaking into tiny pieces, taking a lot of time to put back together)

i've never been this happy yet this scared at the same time.

-- have you ever felt like this?

light a candle for me, will you?

getting lost

the world is big.
for some years now, i got stuck in my own little world working my ass off, trying to make my then-relationship work, letting time pass idly by. i never even noticed that years had passed since i started working and never had i taken some serious time off.
this year, i rediscovered my love for traveling and i gave in to it. whether it's just in the other town or in the island near us or abroad, i allowed myself to wander. feel. get lost.

Somehow, in the middle of getting lost and feeling lost, life finds you but sometimes you realize that, in the end, what you’re really starting to find is yourself.

"Remember what Bilbo used to say: It's a dangerous business, Frodo, going out of your door. You step onto the road, and if you don't keep your feet, there's no knowing where you might be swept off to" (JRR Tolkien)

I still have a lot to discover - about the world, about myself.I have a lot of questions. I have a lot of doubts. I am confused. I still feel lost.

May you have wonderful adventures into finding your selves.

please indulge me. i think my hormones are to blame

"Every girl has their best friend, boyfriend & true love. You're lucky if they're all the same person."

update

like i said in my previous post, making a list of what i want kinda works. so this year i posted the things i wanted for my birthday ( here ) and i actually got some of them (still...world peace is very hard to come by).

i got books!! a boxful of them. icantwaittofinishthemall.

i got a phone that i am loving more each day (even if i really can't get the wifi thingy to work).

i got a watch. it's not the charm watch i wanted but i got a watch (leather. i am a bit allergic to it but hey, it's pretty! hahaha)

i traveled ilo-mla-sing and to boracay in a span of two weeks! and got booked for three more trips within the next months. yay!

so...........i need to work on that spa renewal, jacket, eyeglasses, fitflops and ct scan. i want more trips too! and world peace! i guess they'll be in my christmas wishlist this year.

what made my day were the surprises i got from my friends and my family:

i got a ring!!! the inside says you + us forever, Ph2A.
awwww. this is better than my engagement ring, then.
(yes, i got engaged. super painful, alright, but God is good coz He delivered me away from what could have been a terrible marriage/big mistake. i still do want a ring but that should come with love, commitment, passion and legal papers. oh, and can i please have fraternal twins? hahaha)

as for my prayers...i got some answers too and i still am praying for some more. i know i will get my answers in due time.

i am very thankful for all the blessings. i hope for more blessings not only for me but for those i love too.

here's wishing that i will have more to blog when i celebrate my birthday next year!

cheers!

boracay for the long weekend

we went to boracay for the long weekend last week. we left in the morning and stayed at crystal sand resort, a beachfront place that was just perfect for us.

(my view from our room)

the weather was bad when we left the city but thankfully, the skies cleared up as soon as we reached the island. i thought it would be a great time for me to do my "muni-muni" but alas, it was not. there were a lot of people and the word "quiet" was not really in their minds.

so we did the next best thing: went island hopping

i heart crystal cove! thanks liit!

and ate our hearts out

looking forward to going back to bora soon!

cheers!