attended my little sister's school activity this morning. it was in my mom's school and i had lots of memories of that place. then i had lunch with a friend. so many things we discussed, so many things she shared. and then i shared some too. well, mostly i shared my fears.  it's scary to want something so bad knowing that i am not the only one involved in that something. tomorrow i'm gonna find out if one of my biggest fears will come to an end. i prayed for it. whatever happens, i'm ready.