"There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself."
Today's fathers day and as soon as i woke up (late...very late..haahaha), i immediately rushed to my dad and greeted him. he just smirked while i laughed out load. you see, he never believed in celebrating Father's Day. For him, it is just a way for businesses to get more from people; it is commercialism at its finest. why set just one day for fathers when you can show your dad you love him every single day? (hmmmm....this sounds totally like this other guy i love....). so then we just did what we usually do on sundays.
Last year, i shared things my dad taught me and this year, i would like to share things my dad have always been doing for me, despite my flaws and stubborness. The past year had me and my dad have a lot of serious talks (and i know some of my decisions have hurt him) and we have agreed to disagree on a very very very(-est) important issue for now. i am sure - and i told him this too - that this issue will be resolved as soon as possible and i know when that time comes, he'd be happiest for me.
Anyhoooo, looking back at the past year, this is what I saw my dad do (and have always been doing) for me and my brother.
PRAY. My dad is not as religious as my mom. I remember the times when it was just my mom and us siblings going to church on sundays or praying the rosary at night. But since my dad found his faith again, I never saw a day without him praying in his room. I remember him giving this advice to a cousin who had some problems with her kids. He said something like " Pray for them – for their safety, their future and their happiness. Even when your faith runs low, save a little for them. Pray – not out of religious obligation – but because it’s a beautiful thing to place what you love the most in the hands of Something Greater."
LOVE. One of the things my mom said that really made an impression on me was "love is the only force that changes people for good. when you love someone, love their potential and love their ugliness. make them believe that in a universe of bad things, there is a person who would never fail to see their good.". And my dad has certainly done this. My dad loves me without exception and condition. He loves me even when I suck. Even when I hurt him. Even when I make bad decisions and suffer ugly ugly consequences. Even when no matter how much he tells me to fix my goddarn room, i still don't (i have my reasons...hahahaha). He always reminds me that there is always something good in everyone and no matter how little that goodness may be, love can make it grow. He loves me and he always believes in me.
I know the way I love now is because of my mom and my dad. They showed me that having a big, loving heart is not a disadvantage.
Inside a GROWN UP DAUGHTER
Lives a LITTLE DAUGHTER,
STILL, who loves her Dad
With all her heart
And always,
ALWAYS WILL!
Happy father's day tatay! I love you!
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